Reservation for Dalton

Thursday I was admitted into Labor and Delivery for the remander of my pregnancy. Everything is going great and our little guy is strong and healthy! We are about half way through our stay and I couldn't be happier to be here.

I was starting to have so much anxiety and I wasn't sleeping at all when I was at home. Since I've been here I've actually been able to sleep and I'm not so nervous. I was overwhelmed with my fears that were starting to kick in. Which I know its normal to be worried especially as September approaches but I was getting to the point where I would just break down and panic about Devin.  I couldn't keep doing that to myself, to Devin or to Kale. It makes it even easier when everyone here knows our situation and they are all so nice! 

Speaking about Kale have I mentioned how great he is? I have no idea what I did to deserve such an amazing Husband but there is no way I could do this without him.
And I just want to thank all of our family and friends you guys have all helped us so much!

Wrong turn?

This road we've been on hasn't been the easiest. Two years ago I was looking behind us and saying where did we take the wrong turn?
I couldn't understand what the heck was going on in my life. It was like the turn we took lead us right into a brick wall that just crumbled on top of us and we couldn't get out.
Now I realize why it felt that way. That's what happens when you try to be in control. I was trying to drive my life in the direction I wanted and I kept trying to take the wheel and do what I wanted. That's where I made the wrong turn.
I realize now that I can't be the driver. I can only be the passenger and tell The Lord take me where he wants me to be. I will follow his will and his way and stop following my own.
So often I let my anxiety and fear attack my faith and that's just me allowing the devil into my mind and heart. Fear isn't holy and the devil feeds off the fear I allow myself to have. I'm so anxious to get Devin here that my kind turns in so many directions. Sometimes my thoughts don't stop and all it want to do is sleep to escape my mind.
So Thank God for kale because he is constantly reminding me to pray. To keep my faith and trust in God.
I'm truly thankful to have an amazing husband. He has no idea how much he means to me. Without him I would be a mess.