We went in there and got more done then I though we would. We went through all of her clothes and that was the hardest part. She was so loved and my family and friends bought her beautiful clothes.
I've decided that there are things I can give away and things that I can sell. There was also a lot of stuff we can use got Devin. We are all set on diapers and the wipes are actually still wet! So we are set for a whole. We do have a bouncer and a little toy I like to call the "meat slicer" and a fisher price napper thing.
He will even get to wear some of the camo clothes his sister had and little vans shoes and Oakland raiders booties that uncle Derrick bought.
I just don't know what to do with the car seat, bouncer, playpen, and high chair. It's all matching and in perfect condition. That's something I'm gonna have to put more thought I to because I don't know if I should sell or give away or should I just keep it and see what the future brings? I don't know and I'm not in a hurry to figure it out. I will know soon enough what the right thing to do is.
It's sitting right in my heart and now that we are done I know we have done what's right! So I'm sitting here writing this and what do you know the thunder started. And if you remember from other posts she likes to talk to is through thunder and the rain. So I think she's happy too..
Thanks for reading! Have a great day my friends.
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
I think it's time.
I think it's time.
It's time for me to make the step I have feared for almost two years. It's time for me to open the door and go in.
Cadences room has been a no enter zone for me. I haven't been in there or touched her things in almost two years. My biggest struggle is what do I keep and what do I give away better yet who do I give it too? Are they going to feel strange if I offer things to them? I don't want people to feel like they can't say no. But on the other hand I don't know if I want anyone to have her things.
There's a huge part of my heart that feels like if her things are in there it's ready for her to come home. Which to most people this is a crazy thought. But that's how I feel. It's like that's the only place I can freeze time.
It's going to be bitter sweet because I'll be boxing up her things to make room for Devins things. But I know in my heart that Cadence would want her baby Bubby to have her room to use the things she didn't need.
It's time for me to make the step I have feared for almost two years. It's time for me to open the door and go in.
Cadences room has been a no enter zone for me. I haven't been in there or touched her things in almost two years. My biggest struggle is what do I keep and what do I give away better yet who do I give it too? Are they going to feel strange if I offer things to them? I don't want people to feel like they can't say no. But on the other hand I don't know if I want anyone to have her things.
There's a huge part of my heart that feels like if her things are in there it's ready for her to come home. Which to most people this is a crazy thought. But that's how I feel. It's like that's the only place I can freeze time.
It's going to be bitter sweet because I'll be boxing up her things to make room for Devins things. But I know in my heart that Cadence would want her baby Bubby to have her room to use the things she didn't need.