Was it Mothers intuition?

What was the feeling that I felt? How come I could never see us bringing my Princess home? Was there something wrong with me? That's a question I would ask Kale almost daily.. I felt like I was a bad mother for thinking that way.. He would always try to cheer me up and say I know everything is going to be ok and you are great Mommy, and all mothers worry so its ok to be worried..

I had a really hard time buying things for Cadence, I never wanted to look at baby stuff. I didn't want to talk about anything.. My baby shower was super hard for me, I was thrilled that everyone was there with us and happy to see all of our family and friends there that already loved Cadence but it was so hard for me to be happy.. Needless to say I put on a huge smile and I just kept telling myself everything was ok..

I never could really picture us bringing Cadence home, I have no idea why.. I love her so much but yet this bad feeling of not having her forever was always there bothering me..

I always did what my doctor told me too. I did everything right, I stopped drinking caffeine, I took daily prenatal and my baby aspirin.. I even my OB if it was safe to get my nails done and my hair colored.. I was so mad because I know so many people that have done numerous things while pregnant that could hurt their baby and do you think it bothered them? Nope, sure didn't and it probably still doesn't bother them.. I mean I want to slap every woman I see smoking while pregnant, or drinking because they "didn't know." There are so many people out there that have no idea what heart break others go through while pregnant. All I can ask is please do some research and understand pregnancy before thinking its easy..

I remember after I miscarried someone told me "Maybe you or Kale have something wrong with you and that's what happened" this was the most hurtful thing someone could have told me.. Instead of supporting me and trying to encourage me that is what I got..

Well thats all for now and REMEMBER OCTOBER 15TH is pregnancy awareness day!!
God bless you all... Thank you for reading