My first appointment.

Man was I a nervous wreck! I didn't want to be attached yet. I've been through the hardest tests in my life that I just thought if I guarded my heart I would be better off. I remember walking to the door and telling kale if I could just get through today without crying like a baby I'll be good. He just smiled and squeezed my hand tighter. I checked in and headed back to the bathroom, on my way back there I seen the same girl that would check me in every time with Cadence. She had a bit of a surprised expression to see me.. "Cynthia Dalton" I heard her call out my name and it sent shivers down my spine. Here we go it's time there's no going back there's no leaving. So with Kale by my side we walked in the rooms. I sat there with shaking hands and a racing heart. Waiting for the doctor to walk in felt like eternity. I did good up until I saw his face he came in and with the most encouraging manor he said I'm glad to see you two back. Here come the tears.. I cried like a baby.. During the ultrasound I remember thinking I wanted to cover my eyes and ears. I didn't want to hear or see anything yet. My emotions were a mess and then all I could hear was the sound of a heathy heart! Racing along and then I really lost it. With so much to be grateful for my heart overfilled with joy. And there it went this baby stole my heart. Walking out that day my life changed I remember thinking "I'm having a baby" I couldn't even find words to say except, thank you Jesus!

February 2014

The time had come for me to tell my parents. I was a nervous wreck! We were getting ready to open then reaturant and I had plans to help do everything. And now im pregnant. I thought they were going to be upset. So on the way home from cleaning a house one day I told my mom "hey mom can I tell you something without giving you a heart attack?" And she said yes, what? I said well I took three pregnancy tests and they all said positive so that means I'm pregnant.. By that last word im bawling like a baby and my mom laughs and said why are you crying? That's great news and I'm so happy. Well I couldn't get the nerve to tell my dad so I went home to get daisy and kale to go back to their house for dinner and my mom had already spilled the beans and told my brother and my dad.. To see the look on my dads face was priceless he just laughed gave me a hard time of course and even though he didn't say it I knew he was so happy! I hadn't told anyone except Kale, my parents, and his parents when one day Karson asks me when is Baby Cadence going to come out of your tummy? My heart stopped as I looked at him and said you know where baby Cadence lives silly. And he laughed while looking up at her picture in my truck and said oh ya, in heaven! Then he quickly said well then when is the new baby going to come out of your tummy? I looked at him and said I don't know what you're talking about Karson. He said yes you do your tummy is getting fat cause there is a baby in there. I told him no my tummy isn't getting fat and if it looked fat that's because there's food in there. He said no it's not my tummy has food in it and I'm not fat your fat because there is a tiny baby in your tummy. This still blows my mind because no one knew!! No one had been talking about it and at that time I was only like 5 weeks along so I wasn't showing at all. I honestly think Cadence told him. After all they are best buds from what he tells me.

Let me take you back to January 2014

Well hello again blog! Boy and I happy to be posting again with so much to fill you all in on I hope you are as excited as me! As we welcomed a new year I had big plans for 2014. I was ready to go places to make 2014 my year to shine! I was going to have a summer filled with fun trips planned. That was all until I got a gut feeling I was pregnant. As that thought was taking over my mind I kept telling myself no way I'm not pregnant. Well the days went on and the thought of being pregnant was taking over.. I finally told Kale what my mind was coming up with and he laughs and said well maybe you are. Few more days go by and I decided I couldn't wait I had to know. So I bought some pregnancy tests and took two of them (remember this was about a week early that I took them) well believe it or not they both came up positive. When I seen those two pink lines on both sticks I was actually numb at first. I didn't want to get excited. So I told myself that they could have been wrong and I would do another test if needed by the end of the month. Well that thought didn't last long cause the day I was late I knew I was pregnant. Needless to say I still took another test and this time those two lines were the brightest lines I had ever laid eyes on. So I of course cried like a baby. With so much running through my head I didn't know what to do or how to feel. The funny thing about this that I haven't told anyone, about a month or two earlier I remember getting ready one morning listing to praise and worship on my phone I just hit my knees and started to pray. I don't remember the entire prayer but I do remember this like it were written on the back of my hand "Lord don't let me be afraid, I need you now in my life, I need your guidence on what to do.. I'm torn lord, I want more children I want to have a child to hold in my arms to raise on earth and to teach them about you.. But Lord I'm scared that I'm not strong enough to make that decision on my own. Lord I ask that when kale and I are both ready you will bless is with a child. Amen. Little did I know my prayer would be answered God already knew what my heart wanted he just needed me to meet him there and finally come to him n say it's yours Lord take my reins and lead me. My hope for you today is that you remember even though you aren't seeing results right away to your prayers, don't give up on them!