August 13th

August 13th.. Well That days was pretty good actually.. We had our regular NST (non stress test) scheduled for that afternoon.. We went in and I had a different nurse that day, I had seen her before but she was never my nurse..

We had a conversation while we were there, about how great of an OB I have. She asked how we found that I had MTHFR and I told her it was after a miscarriage. I told her that my doctor didn't hesitate to run all the tests he could.. He was down to business.. She responded by saying "Yes, he is a great doctor.. And in cases when there is a miscarriage or still birth he does everything and all the tests he can do to get an answer." Well little did we know that this conversation would relate to us..

Cadence's heart rate and activity looked amazing so she call my OB and let him know and he said ya let her go on home.. He had the nurse tell me if I felt like I was having contraction just to go back in and he would induce labor. Although a little disappointed that we were going to have her that day we went home and off we went with her bouncing around, and smiles on our faces..

That night we went to my parents house and my mom and I went from a 10 minute walk. I told her that the last couple months I just a feeling.. A feeling that made worried, I even remember printing out this prayer that said something like "Lord please help me surrender all my fears and anxiety to you, and help calm my heart."

This feeling was something that lingered around me, I would just cry and cry.. Even after every successful OB appointment I still felt like something was going to happen..