And they say the Holidays are the hardest?

I don't really believe that the Holidays are the hardest.. I mean its not any harder then other days with out you.. I mean of course its hare we are supposed to be thrilled and buying gifts for a our four month old.. and watching her smile and laugh.. This is her first Christmas..

Of course Christmas was hard for us, but I refused to be sad.. Cadence is amazing, and she has given me the greatest gift in the world.. That's being her Mommy..

I think the reason people say holidays are the hardest is because your supposed to be with family, and your supposed to have a good time.. But I feel like everyday is a struggle, I miss Cadence everyday.. I shouldn't be sad just because it's Christmas.. The hard part is imagining what she would be doing today, what would she look like today.. But that doesn't just come into my mind on the holidays I think about that everyday..

Cadence isn't sad, she doesn't feel pain, and I know she wants Kale and me to be happy! So I refuse to not be happy she is with me everyday, "This is the Day that the Lord has made, and I will Rejoice in It"

We Love you Cadence and I know  you are having a blast in Heaven! Keep Shinning down on us!


--I hope all of you had a safe and blessed holiday! <3

Today..A Good Day..

I was really not wanting to celebrate Christmas.. The thought of celebrating a holiday that I should have a beautiful 4 month old baby girl was just heart breaking.. I hated everything about this time of year and I just wanted to skip ahead a few months and say hello to March.. Well we all know thats not gonna happen..

It wasn't until I seen something on a facebook page that changed my mind.. It said "Don't Be Sad, I'm Spending Christmas With Jesus!" and I could imagine Cadence telling me that.. Instantly my heart changed and I got a great Idea! My Husbands family owns the Cemetery where Cadence is so we can do what we'd like and take as much stuff for her as we want!

So I decided to take a Christmas Tree there and set it up with decorations, and lights.. and Celebrate Christmas with my DAUGHTER that way! She has the most adorable tree.. and I was so happy that my family got to be there with us! It meant so much to Kale and me.. Cadence is going to have the best Christmas ever and she has an amazing gift that not even I could have given her, SHE'S SPENDING CHRISTMAS WITH JESUS! Cadence has taught me so much in just four months she has changed me! She has made me a better, stronger, more loving, and FAITHFUL person, and for that she has given me the most beautiful gift a mother could ask for!

A few pictures from our day!! Enjoy!