Let me take you back to January 2014

Well hello again blog! Boy and I happy to be posting again with so much to fill you all in on I hope you are as excited as me! As we welcomed a new year I had big plans for 2014. I was ready to go places to make 2014 my year to shine! I was going to have a summer filled with fun trips planned. That was all until I got a gut feeling I was pregnant. As that thought was taking over my mind I kept telling myself no way I'm not pregnant. Well the days went on and the thought of being pregnant was taking over.. I finally told Kale what my mind was coming up with and he laughs and said well maybe you are. Few more days go by and I decided I couldn't wait I had to know. So I bought some pregnancy tests and took two of them (remember this was about a week early that I took them) well believe it or not they both came up positive. When I seen those two pink lines on both sticks I was actually numb at first. I didn't want to get excited. So I told myself that they could have been wrong and I would do another test if needed by the end of the month. Well that thought didn't last long cause the day I was late I knew I was pregnant. Needless to say I still took another test and this time those two lines were the brightest lines I had ever laid eyes on. So I of course cried like a baby. With so much running through my head I didn't know what to do or how to feel. The funny thing about this that I haven't told anyone, about a month or two earlier I remember getting ready one morning listing to praise and worship on my phone I just hit my knees and started to pray. I don't remember the entire prayer but I do remember this like it were written on the back of my hand "Lord don't let me be afraid, I need you now in my life, I need your guidence on what to do.. I'm torn lord, I want more children I want to have a child to hold in my arms to raise on earth and to teach them about you.. But Lord I'm scared that I'm not strong enough to make that decision on my own. Lord I ask that when kale and I are both ready you will bless is with a child. Amen. Little did I know my prayer would be answered God already knew what my heart wanted he just needed me to meet him there and finally come to him n say it's yours Lord take my reins and lead me. My hope for you today is that you remember even though you aren't seeing results right away to your prayers, don't give up on them!